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DaRk AnGel : Why Home : February 2005
The days between then and today.. Have been filled with tedious tasks trying to kill mental activity. So I write only for myself, not wanting to put all of my insanity on line.
And to darken the days even more than the winter gray and rain does already, this weekend I started my yearly taxes. I hate the process.. Why not just a flat tax??
One of these days I will again laugh and restore myself to what I was.. Until then, just a simple note to say I have not abandoned you…
Black Sleep...
February 11, 2005 20:37
My dreams for the last year or so have been so unexplainable.. I had one last night.. I currently have three great danes.. And I Dreamt that my sister was at the house, and had accidentally let the dogs out! Well I live on a quiet almost rural street.. But... (Read Article)
Miracles
February 12, 2005 21:35
It was one of those email things.. If you send it to seven people then one could expect a miracle within 24 hours..What is a miracle? Does it have to be something unexplainable? Or is it something that maybe one does not expect to witness or have occur had... (Read Article)
A Rant.. The end of the world...
February 13, 2005 21:06
I fear the end of the world.. At least as we know it.. I love America. I stand behind our troops. And I think our endeavors in Afghanistan and Iraq are good and justified.With that said I just finished reading an AP article regarding the drone probes into Iran.... (Read Article)
Firsts...
February 13, 2005 21:06
Today was a day of many firsts...It is the first time that I have worn slacks in years..Today is the date of the first date I have had in years... And today I learned much from a friend I have never met..The other firsts are either too trivial or too personal... (Read Article)
The DATE!!
February 15, 2005 22:13
Gosh I just counted and besides my prisoners, there are 14 emails all wanting to know how my date went.. Most hopeful that a new day is here… So I Decided to post it here.. Then I will print and email it to the inmates, and also send links to my email friends.... (Read Article)
Strangely Familiar
February 15, 2005 22:34
That feeling of being totally alone.. Without family or roots.. I have been here before..But never has it been this hard..I was a sucker.. A fool.. Used..I injected the dark angel philosophy early on..and she steadfastly told me that it was not the case..I... (Read Article)
"You can easily judge the character of a man by how he treats those who can do nothing for him."
Terminality
February 20, 2005 22:35
Night after night I await the next dawnpraying each will alleviatethe pain that is crippling me.. The pain of one who has been cast asideAs worthless garbage.I was a disposable love.. A thing of convience…How I wish my love wasnot.Is she the liar she appears... (Read Article)
Happy....
February 22, 2005 21:22
I just found some emails that I do not recall writing.. Scarey.. It is a combination of the gin and the pain meds. I guess the drinks I have at night to sleep are causing me some black outs. So no more…Emotionally at this time, all I can compare myself to is... (Read Article)
Therapy...
February 23, 2005 21:19
As I go through the thousands of lines of Emails between Carolyn and myself, much is brought back to me. I have decided to put the emails up on the internet. To bare all.. It is slow going. I do a day of emails when I have time.. Which is rare.. And I was so... (Read Article)
Another Reason
February 25, 2005 19:43
What comes next has to be better than what this experience has been. I wonder why some people are born into a life of simplicity? They breeze through life with no real trials or tests, they do the right thing , and they have little depth. Simple amusement,... (Read Article)